Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Miracles happen

What a great and mighty God I serve! I have been told I look pretty good for a dead woman. And I have to agree. I thought that statement best summarized my sickness. For a person that never should have lived to see April, 2011, I am still here. I told God I had to live until october so I could see my 11th grandchild born. God honored that, and Piper Jolene was born perfect and beautiful. Then I asked God to let me live to be older than 55. I turned 56 in Nov. Then I asked God to let me make it thru the holidays, and what a great holiday it was. I was the most grateful to be here for this Christmas than I had ever been in my life. now I have asked God to let me live until March. This will be the I year mark from my diagnosis. Then in may, my oldest granddaughter graduates from college with a degree in forensics. I have to be there to see her walk across that OSU stage. The truth is, I don't have time to die. I have told God that, and he seems to understand. With my type of aggressive cancer, I have scans quite often. In nov, my scan showed spots back on my lungs, and a cluster of "something" at the base of my esophagus. I was in ICU, and also had pneumonia. I had another scan done the end of last week. Tho I feel great, and was fairly positive, still Satan would whisper doubt in my ear. I held firmly to Gods promises, and was reminded of the healing blood of Jesus, and believe me, I clung to that! Today, I got scab results. Every spot has disappeared, except the one spot at the base of my esophagus, which is actually in a lymph node, pressing against the esophagus. The spot has grown from 1.1 cm to 1.8 cm. I'm no dr, but to me, that doesn't seem like much growth. The dr is not even sure it is cancer. He said it could be an infection. Here is what I do know. I feel great. No pain, no shortness of breath, and ready to live all my days serving the God who created me. I love that, it makes me seem so special. I can make a cake, but if I create a cake, you can bet I would put my all in it. See how good God is? He didn't just make me, He created me. He formed me when I was still in my mothers womb. God doesn't need me in heaven. He needs me here, and I will spend the rest of my days serving my God. I actually believe I am getting very close to returning to work, part time. That is a miracle. Today I am so grateful. I am so thankful to be alive. I am grateful for no pain, easy breathing, and so many people who have prayed, and continue to pray. Don't stop praying. For people who have doubted the power of prayer, I am your example that it works. I had a person tell me he had doubted God was still in the miracle business. He is a "show me" person. He told me tonight, God showed him a miracle because of what he has done for me. This man is my youngest son. He said he will never doubt miracles again. Keep praying. Keep the faith. And keep lifting me up. God is listening. Becky