You would think I would be jumping for joy

You would think I would be jumping for joy. Don't get me wrong, I'm elated over the news from yesterday. But today, I am just tired. Really tired. I even had the blood transfusion yesterday, and I feel worn out. I am just ready to not be sick. I just want to feel good, not tired, sore, bald, chemo crazy, sick from chemo, no energy, out of breath, and I want my gut to quit hurting. I don't know how people do this for years. I have done it for months, and I'm already tired of it. But I am so grateful to God. I am grateful that he has removed my tumors, and given me a chance at a life. I am thankful for his healing touch, and his love for me. Especially when you consider I do not deserve anything. What an awesome God I serve, that He could love me in spite of myself, and the life I have lived. I certainly don't deserve it. I am just grateful for the miracle He has performed, and believe me, this is a miracle. I have 2 more rounds of chemo to go, and I will be glad when they are over. Then I have the PET scan, and I guess that is when I can officially jump for joy. But I'm happy now. I saw the scan from yesterday, and it was clear of all tumors. What a big blessing! So, today, I am just worn out and nauseated, and tired. Maybe after a good nights sleep, all will be well. I know all is well with my soul, now if I could just have everything well with my body. So, I will just keep on keeping on, and more importantly, keep the faith. Becky